Fear displaces normal memory functioning, as does physical unconsciousness. Why should you remember exactly what happened? Subsequent to a catastrophe, there is mass confusion, inside and outside.

I can' t tell anyone.

A perpetrator maintains a state of mind, which authorizes he/she to put his/her desires above any other person' s right to personal dignity and privacy. In a twisted sense, the perpetrator saw you as a source of his/her comfort.

No, the perpetrator does not have that capacity. He/She may have caused severe harm; may have displaced much of your life, including your sense of identity; or taken a loved one -- but you survived. Your survival is one thing the perpetrator failed at in perfecting his/her crime. It is your survival that becomes your victory. Your victory is your weapon and your future. (Yes, you do have a future.)

Regardless of who the perpetrator is, consider affording law enforcement the opportunity to assist. If they investigate, you will find new strength. If they don' t investigate, they will tell you why --it won't be because they don't believe you.

This is the rotating of thoughts which result from tragedy and wishing it hadn' t happened. You can' t hide behind a shield of disbelief from an event in which you were involved. Just look at the facts and circumstances, then define the immediate result of the event. Two plus two still equals four. Facts speak. It's not necessary to conjure belief.

Your need to feel safe has increased. Whether your fear is based on physical or emotional endangerment, the initial resolution is the same. Take care of obvious things first. Secure locks on all windows and doors at your home. Have your door locks changed. Place every safety device that you can locate on your home, office, and vehicle. (Go to the hardware store and ask for guidance.) Consider a self-defence course. It will increase safety and increase confidence level in yourself. Carry self-protection at all times, whether it is a firearm, pepper spray or other device. (Your local law enforcement can assist you in knowing what the safest form of protection device is for YOU.) Make identical lists of telephone numbers of people and organizations, which can provide immediate protection, guidance and comfort. Place a list by every telephone in your home -- and don' t remove it. Place a list in your purse or pocket. Place a list in your vehicle. Don't rely upon your memory -- it' s too busy right now. Write those numbers on a piece of paper. A professional counsellor can help you find comfort. Law enforcement and insurance agencies can suggest ways to secure your physical surroundings. Think!